Back to the drawing board...
This week hasn't really started off that well...
I missed church yesterday because I forgot to turn on my alarm...
(me ----> retard). As a result I probably missed out on a really good message... The instant I woke up and realized that I missed church, I started to really feel bad, to really feel depressed. I know, its only one week, but for some reason I felt especially bad that I missed this week. I couldn't figure it out. Yeah I get upset when I miss church, but why do I feel this bad this time? Then I started thinking about it, and I realized why... Its that situation... God had something else in store for me rather than to deal with that...
Today wasn't good either. I had two exams back to back, Intro to Psychology and Software Systems Architecture (UNIX). Neither went well at all, including the fact that the second side of my answer sheet for UNIX was almost completely blank. That's a first for me. I knew that I should write something, but for whatever reason I coudn't write anything.... It wouldn't have mattered though, his grading scheme sucks! If you get a question completely right - 6 points. If you get it almost right, 3 points. If you get it less than half right, 0 points... and that's how those guesses would have gone... 0. Then I get back another exam, that one was horrible. I need to do really well on this final to get my grade back up. And I was prepared for all of them! I studied, I put my time in. I honestly thought I knew what I had to do...
What happened to this semester? Looked so promising. I came off of last semester with a head of steam, doing really well at the end there. Then this semester started off so well. That 3.5 GPA looked so good up until half way. Then I just watched it disapppear. I'm confused, depressed, upset and LOST! This was the semester for me to shine. This was the semester I was gonna put on my resume right under that CUM to show I arrived. I'm ready to be hired. Now I face a mediocre semester, and even that's stretching it now, what to do what to do, I have no clue...
Wait correction, I know what to do. Pray. Sometimes its when we just leave it in His hands and completely humble ourselves that we hear Him. I don't understand what's going on, but He has answers, which He will give in time. I hope I get over this soon enough though, right now what I need is a hug...
I missed church yesterday because I forgot to turn on my alarm...
(me ----> retard). As a result I probably missed out on a really good message... The instant I woke up and realized that I missed church, I started to really feel bad, to really feel depressed. I know, its only one week, but for some reason I felt especially bad that I missed this week. I couldn't figure it out. Yeah I get upset when I miss church, but why do I feel this bad this time? Then I started thinking about it, and I realized why... Its that situation... God had something else in store for me rather than to deal with that...
Today wasn't good either. I had two exams back to back, Intro to Psychology and Software Systems Architecture (UNIX). Neither went well at all, including the fact that the second side of my answer sheet for UNIX was almost completely blank. That's a first for me. I knew that I should write something, but for whatever reason I coudn't write anything.... It wouldn't have mattered though, his grading scheme sucks! If you get a question completely right - 6 points. If you get it almost right, 3 points. If you get it less than half right, 0 points... and that's how those guesses would have gone... 0. Then I get back another exam, that one was horrible. I need to do really well on this final to get my grade back up. And I was prepared for all of them! I studied, I put my time in. I honestly thought I knew what I had to do...
What happened to this semester? Looked so promising. I came off of last semester with a head of steam, doing really well at the end there. Then this semester started off so well. That 3.5 GPA looked so good up until half way. Then I just watched it disapppear. I'm confused, depressed, upset and LOST! This was the semester for me to shine. This was the semester I was gonna put on my resume right under that CUM to show I arrived. I'm ready to be hired. Now I face a mediocre semester, and even that's stretching it now, what to do what to do, I have no clue...
Wait correction, I know what to do. Pray. Sometimes its when we just leave it in His hands and completely humble ourselves that we hear Him. I don't understand what's going on, but He has answers, which He will give in time. I hope I get over this soon enough though, right now what I need is a hug...
